today actually didnt wanna go school ... because of report den ii go.. but who know we dun need to get back report book.. *ALAMAK*...
today go school still mus see they all dance!! haiis yahs... cannot believe them tat they bastard miie larhs... practice so hard den they kick mie out ferr NO REASON.. wanna kick also must tell me a REASON wad... after audition asked them weather gortt practice nortt but den they said NO cause they verii tired... so I BELIEVE larhs... recently ii suspect tat they are performing cause ii OVERHEARD them discussing about the attire.. since they nortt performing why still discuss... so ii jus pretend ii didnt heard! they change practice venue place also didnt tell miie!!!
ii ask them wheather going ferr a REHERSAL nortt, they say nortt GOING.. ii didnt go also cause mass and khai nortt going... who know THEY LIED! they went for it without telling miie!!! FUCKED OFF man!!! ii go asked mass abt it but she inisit that she didnt know everything cause she last min joined.. ii nthing to say larhs
they no money come take ferr mie.. now bastards miie... haiis
ii dun take it to heart but den ii still have to go school see they dance with out mie... my HEART CRACKED siahs... they dance like no energy and others groups was betta den them... haiis
but never mind larhs as wad ling and others say their dance nortt nice and as long as ii didnt wait till actual day den ii didnt perform it already quite good!!! in klass they asked mie the dance nice nortt ii just ignore and say ii didnt watch... the more ii comment the more ii think
today went to meet ling to study at mac... meet her at bedok library with anisa and a guy... den sat awhile den when back to bdn mac study and do our work.. on the way back we went pasar malam buy food to makan and she also wanna bought some ferr her zam so ii share money with her to buy some food for all riders too.. they didnt eat at all larhs but one took a packet..haiis yahs nvr appreciate hahas.. *oPPs* den till 6 plus went to ling hoouse take her stuff , slack awhile and went dwn kopitiam eat HOKIIEN MEE... quite tasty but big plate siahs... hahas didnt finish up;.. den went back around at 8.45pm... we dunch wan so early go back but no pplace ferr us so went back home..hahasTODAY MEILING IS LONELY HAHAStoday in school get back maii result..damm poor siahs ferr maii maths hahasmaths onli get 39/100... haha still can so proud siah hahas...other also done quite good lahs..hahas
fuyoo!! long long time didnt blog lol hahas... ling asked miie to update but lazy and busy so larhs hahas... now FINALLY !!!hahas let miie begin on friday, having computer and eoa paper.. after that ii went home straight and prepared to work at 3pm.. actualy didnt really want to wrk cause so tired...hmmz but still have larhs cause ltr no money..hahas... end up when to work.. after reached home from skul, rushing to do handcraft photoframe for ching yee on sunday but den we will be celebrating on saturday aftter 12am..on saturday, ii suppose ttu start work at 3pm den end up called to come in early at 2pm.. ii still asleep man ..hahas no choice larhs, but end up ii slept till 1.30pm den wake up.. haiis yo!! hmmz ii quickly go en get ready den took a cab down and wasted 4.90 cents... hais yahs yahs...no mood to wrk cause too tired. but end up doing counter with fidah which she is a GIFFRAF hahas... end up the both of us playing and hitting each other for no reason.. play too much and gone crazy..hahas when for break around 4 like tat be4 fidah gone back home... from tat moment ii been running counter alone but once in a tiime june came and help larhs.. chey, 1st time..hahas okiies larhsTHANKS MANY MANY ARGHS....hmmz nasran also came my mac but food hahas thanks to him, my manager thought ii was refering to her.. ALAMAK!!! big trouble!!1 hahas.. suppose to end at 10pm bt jun wan me extend till 11pm cause no MDS crew and have to wait till william come in but ii dun want larhs cause veri tired and wanted to go back celebrate ching yee birthday... ii simply beg her to let mie off and she cant so ii kol william to come in at 10pm lahs.. so FINALLY can go back home!!! hahasii slept at 5am in the moring and get up at 8.30am like that to go ferr maii netball trainng at bedok south netball court... hahas bacause of watching dvd ii slept at 5am and wake up damm early. den called ling wake up at 8.30am also.. den ii meet her at bdk inter 1st before going meeting the rest of them at telephone booth dere... but whoose noe that all of them were late and make us waited ferr quite a long time... asminah came alrdy but den she went makan breakfast with her family while waiting fer mass and aishah.. ii called shrifah and she was nort at home due to her sister say larhs.. suddenly ii recieved her call from her hsu fone... she just wake up and she told mie that she something on at LAST MIN so could not come and meet us!!! so ii wad KINDLY PISSED OFF AND FUCKED UP larhs everyone always like that last miin last min but ,uckily the 3 of them didnt lahs... and we suppose to meet at bdk south court , change to kakit bukit cc due to raining and the 5 of us of do fitness test and have a fun day larhs TOO BAD SOME PPL CANNOT JOIN... hais yahs PROMISE ALWAYS BEEN BREAK.... so didnt care too much as long the plan is on lahs... then went to meiling house for awhile as help her paste paper on her window to blick the sun.. den zam came back and have a short chat den ii changed and go down with them to buy their stuff and when to wrk at 3pm...as usual lahs, ii was tired den alone run counter..hahasbut quite a hard day!!! one last thing ii was happy and shocked abt was... ibrahim birthday same as miie..happy siahs first time gortt pppl same birthday as miie and we have many ways alike... both from same secondary skul, both stay tampines, wrk same mac ...hahas too concidence alrdy,.... first time siahs hahas
hp bill bomb like hell already!! ii dun want to contact anyone already cause ii always ..............
haiis have to pay mum $200 plus and now nortt working anymore and ownself also out
of money used!!! haiis
stupid john john!!! come early fer lesson the ppl kena scold come late one never kena scold!
fucked off lahs!! teacher always talked big but didnt do it!!! dun put BLAME on others
ii have a stupid
>life
>school
>brain
> teachers!!!
teachers always against students.. always look at bad point instead of good point!!!
they suppose to teach but yet talking about their HISTORY!!!
II GIVE UP EVERYTHING II HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TOO..
yahs ii have william but so wad...have him seem like dun have him... ii also didnt meet
him ferr quite atime.. not only you! yiiew think ii wanna this to happen!! if you know wad happen in my school and my home yiiew will un derstand why!!! not ii dun wish to contact
you....................
xian didnt really go out or have fun this few day... budden the usual 3 of us go ESPLANADE and study... hahas SHIOK cold enuff ferr us hahas..FREEZE!!! hahas..reached dere around 3 plus den start with my own work, EOA and Maths.. this few day onli concentrate on EOA nortt MATHS but ii afraid of MATHS...haiis. sian ltr dunno how to do again!!! *eRRRRR*
this 2 day really have fun with kim and yan!!! we CREATED SO MUCH FUN SEY! hahas spending 2 day at marina square and esplanande..hahas..shiok sey! siimply went to eat our FAVOURIITE CHOCOLATE after study! eaten that for past 2 day hahas CRAZT FREAK!
to : YAN
we didnt mean to be rude at all and this is the way we are usually!! we everytime cracked like this and u didnt say anything and just joke along and today u say we RUDE!!! haiis i=yiiew cannot take JOKE anymore!!!
hmmz this few day really totally broke at all ... no money spend like last time..haiss..sad lahs some more exam cannorttt work lol hah! need money money money!!!
today, friday, 12.30pm after school when to netball court meet netballer memebers to take group fotos... really miss netball day but then really lazy to run hahas... stupid excuse but aniwhere coach change le so we might SUFFER when ii go hahas... today saw GERMAINE and HAYATI... ii feel like missing dem cause we seem like many mths didnt meet..althought every morning ii saw them iin school but didnt really tok much...haiis but never we still can contact with them! netball fotto later den upload!
this few day didnt contact ling.. feel like getting far apart and this is nortt ii wish!!! haiis
miiss her lahs wanna go out... haiis
FAR FAR APART
few mins ago ii went to read xiao wei blog. she is miss kewk cell group leader.. when ii read her blog about sendin miss kewk off at airport, ii suddenly drop tears.. ii suddenly verii miss her and ii was touch by the blog...
till now ii still can rmb the day we send miiss kewk off at terminal 1... ii dropiing tears.. mostly of the 4i came and send her off... 2gether with her basketball pupils.. although we waited since 11pm till 3.30am, we totally dun mind cause she had a tough time teaching us and verii patient to us.. ii cannot bear to let her go.. she cried.. ii nvr see her cried b4.. she slowly walked in and we stood behind the door glass and see her go in...
today was kindly pissed off iin skul.. haiis.. today ii get scolding from mr john he damm fucked off.. he ownself do the thing he cannot remember den come and scold miie.. arghs lahs, didnt wanna mention any more... since he dun wan help miie so ii go home lahs wad the point of staying.. ii walked off and he scolded miie and want miie stay back till 6pm.. he WAIT LONG LONG lahs.. he wan to call OM to come if ii go back, so wad ii scared arghs... ur fault nortt maii fault... now ii wish to drop out his lesson!!! nortt gonna get scolding from him any more... STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS
today ii suddenly cry iin class... ii am thiinking alot of thin and ii feel like dying cause ii one to be free from trouble and thinking.... look like may thing have been changing in maii lyfe... onli one word oo can say is II AM STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!! haiis how long can ii maintain this friendship and how long can ii have this kor!!!! ii dun wan to lost anyone in my life....ii feel like ii am a BREAKINGDOWN gurl.... HOW LONG II MUST HAVE THIS LIFE...
ii stress of
> how long can ii maintain this friendship
>how long cn i have this kor!!
>how long can ii bear with this life
> how many time i must drop tear because of trouble
> when ii can have happy life with many many fren arounf
ii am sad.. ii dunwan this life
today went to meet guan keat gor at tampines mrt station...suppose to meet him at 7.15am de but both of us late... we met around 8 plus and ii waited ferr 1 hour plus lol haha den he keep saying sorriie in sms ..haha he so cute lahs...hahas den when ii asked him ii so happy and shocked sia caused he changed alot ler..hahas almost cannot recongised him hahas so handsome le maii korkor!! hahas we was quite quiet all the while lahs ii dunno why... den we meet his cell frens den we go staudim to celebrate CITY HARVEST 17 ANNIVASARY. hahas the service was verii fun and we do alot of thing hahas... ii tofay enjoyed myself alot and ii know alot new friends..
THANKS KOR FOR EVERYTHING TODAY! II LURB THE SERVICE TODAY AND I ENJOYED MYSELF ALOT THANKS MANY MANY MANY TO MAII GUAN KEAT KOR
haiis didnt blog ferr such a long time and as ii am lazy and stressed... didnt noe what to do...
ii verii pissed off with him.. he dun understand me at all, wht he cared was about his GODSISTER and her GAME.. ii am totally lost, ii cannot feel that he really cared ferr miie and he also dun concern about miie at all.. he cannot understand miie..he was suddenly like a different person or may be ii think too much..haiis what can ii do..ii dun want to tell him all this because ii noe he comfirm heartbroken and ii dun want his apologise..all his concern was just about his godsis and his game..all he do was just playing his game..ii onli sms in the morning to wake him up and when ii in school we didnt sms much cause ii havin lesson and he also larhs. budden he after school also didnt sms mii and he went to play his game till 11plus..all the way didnt sms.. what can i do? sit at home waiting..sometime ii think he really forget about miie..did he? he always mention about his godsis , ii admit i jealous and not happy about it as every gal will do that.. as ii say ii cannot feel he is concerning miie..ii alreadii did what ii can.. STRESS STRESS...ii dun ab the mood to sms him or whatever!!!! just REALLY PISSED OFF!
in school ii am totally lost! all friends are just nothing to miie! ii feel nothing when ii with them and ii just treat as a wall?statue?... whoever ii with ii feel nothing... ii jus feel been make use!! wad ii wish was, continued working ferr 24 hrs... who will care! friends all nothing.. ii do somthing ferrr them they dun appreciate, ii care ferr them they say ii just doing fake concern..when ii sick, no one care... ii feel lonely, ii dun think this is friends are and ii dun want this from them what ii want is fun, friends attention not a pillar to them!!!!!
at home, ii feel been nagged! ii cannot feel any family love!! all ii heard is harsh words, comparing words, iirating voices! ii dun like... ii hate it,. ii wanna leave this home.
TOTALLY_BREAKDOWN!!!
SELF-INDEPENT_GURL
