Didnt really wanted to attend school this morning.
Lazyness really bring me down. ^_^
Since Bestie happened to go school around my timing
went to meet her up at inter with her classmate =D
Had a little catch up with her, all we do is UPDATE UPDATE!!!!
ANDAND
BESTIE, i realize ii always interested in your BLESSFUL story =X
hahas.. ii want to know more luhs....
Shall stop here.. TATA =D
all i can say is
* ILU*
but do you?
20Aug-24Aug..
Finally back home...
Have been busying with dearst ah gong funerals
Thanks for those who came down & who donated =D
APPRECIATED=)
Thanks BESTIE & friends for those messages sent to ME =DD
Shall not mentioned things in school.
kinda childish instead!
school ended early, so i am home to surf net =D
Well, somehow i browse through someone profile or blog.
And i feeling so guilty.
I don't know what situation i am in now.
I don't have any ideas at all.
All i can say i am feeling guilty & confusing,
For the future & present, i don't carry much hopes...
All i can do is steps by steps.
I am CONFUSING & feel LOST
" if between us there is 1000 steps, i will only take the 1st step and the remaining 999 steps, i will walked towards your direction.''
How i wish, this could happened to me =D




16 August 2008
Today was totally different =D
No longer Crew Leader.
Everything going to change & i got to adapt new things.
Meet up with WW at 107 coffee shop.
Had lunch with him before i went to work at 2.30pm
Meet up with HUIMIN to go store together.
SERIOUSLY, i couldn't get used to it at all.
ALL i feel is UNCOMFORTABLE.
HUIMIN feel weird walking with me =D
It BLESSFUL enuff for me to work
with RONALD for the 1st day.
because NO STRESS?
It very difficult to command others to work when i, myself
has already used to hands on myself.
Aunties, Stephanie & Lawrence feeling unusual as
i was so Quiet for the whole day.
HEYHEY! of course i do feel unusual cause i am not used it man!!
TIME IS STILL NEEDED.
STORE WAS SUPER NOISY BY CALLING MGR HERE & THERE
i have a name call LOWJIAWEN =D
EDUCATED AUNTIE came to work & things wasn't that GREAT TOO.
BESTIE, LONGXIANG & AH JAZZ came down to look for me
THANKS BESTIE. U ARE BEING LOVED & APPRECIATED by ME:LOWJIAWEN
I Will leave weekdays for u =D
BOOK ME WHILE AVAILABLE.
thanks for those who sent me a msg,
you are being APPRECIATED too =D
=D
Had a change in working time for today.
NO OVERNIGHT, which is GREAT!
I can sleep all i want.
But things wasn't great today.
Well, i am suppose to work 6pm-2am, ended up i only work 6pm-11pm.
Thanks to DAVID.
Seriously, i had no idea of what things going on.
It seem like i am clueless
TML TML TML.
PETTY CASH BOOK & CASHBOOK TEST IS COMING SOON.
EXAMS IS ON THEIR WAY TOO =D
SEPT 8 & 9 - I HAVING ACCOUNTING & BUSINESS TEST.
AFTER THAT I WILL BE FREE.... I HAVING 1 MONTHS HOLIDAYS BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO GONE BORED FOR 2WEEKS THEN =(
I want my WW** ^_^
I want my cliques.. (where is my pool session)
I want my bestie =D
I want UQ0804D outings =)
I want 4i gathering..
I want shopping
AND AND AND
I want EARN TONS OF $$$
Anyway THANKS DONKEY for taking over YEAH!
TATA ! I GOING OFF TO STUDY LUHS =D
It school holiday today.
Well, have to go back to visit my dearest grandparents. It been since months that i went back for a visit. =D
But i am too bored without **
I've got this email from Director Jack Neo, he is so sweet to share this with me and now I would like to share it with you.
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She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will he lp some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'
Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.
The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.
She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter.
The letter said :
'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.
Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.
Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?
Watch this.
http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=13a4a045cd290bc2ae2d
he story of a bridge operator who is forced to choose between the life of the son he loves dearly and a train filled with people
THURSDAY ! = MY OFF DAY =D
Today timetable was like 8am - 2pm.
but we was late for accounting lesson,
as in 8.10am we was still at tampines inter.
So decided to cab to school instead.
Ended up still didnt manage to went in class
as we reach there 8.20am ANDAND classroom will be locked
at 8.15am. Well, so didnt really bothered much,.
i have a total of 4 hrs break till my next lesson start.
Had breakfast cum lunch at cafe 1 with classmates.
Chit chatting & fooling around with nonsense.
Went to watch performance.
12pm was Business lesson & yet classmates n I didnt went
up for lesson as everyone wanted to look at those dance performances =D
ENded up we was banned from going in, so we went loitering around
and and LASTLY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY =D
i got this from my cousin blog. & it about personal profiles
You appreciate the better things of life and you don't particularly want to strive in order to achieve them. What a pity you were not born into the Gentry with servants, etc. Unfortunately - life is not like that. You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be but you must make the effort.
Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.
Being emotionally inhibited you have no alternative at this time but to be a 'watcher' rather than a 'doer'. At this time you feel as if you are being forced to compromise and stand back. But this is not the true you. Deep down there is that warm 'open' you which is awaiting the moment to burst forth - maybe like the chrysalis which will soon become the butterfly.
Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.
The tensions and stresses that you are experiencing at this time are, you feel, beyond your capabilities or your reserves of strength to cope with. You feel inadequate and in a constant state of anxiety.You are attempting to escape from this situation into a secure environment in which you may be permitted to relax and recover, free from outside interference.
Well, something make me feeling very pissed off & i am super confusing about things around me or happened to me.
Since this is MY blog, i not going to care who i have OFFENDED or who is going to HATE me. I going to pour everything single things out till i am SATISFATE.
1st thing:
" ii didn't ever see before such a thick skin people going round and round telling them tat he / she greatest day is coming or what she wish to have. just because they want to gain some sympathy or gain some thing they like. Well, i know is NONE OF MY BUSINESS. but dun they feel shamless. They are making them looking like a idoit.
Well, it a sore of eye to me. what i can say is they are feeling JEALOUS or ENVY.
PLEASE THINK BEFORE U DO OR SAY, IF NOT U WILL BE LOOKING LIKE A CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS...
2nd thing:
i have my OWN FREEDOM & my OWN LIFE. including my PRIVACY. I dont need to report to you all, what i am doing, sms-ing , hanging out with. I don't mind if it a joke at sometimes. But there is a LIMIT to every single things.
What u all say is not what people might like at all.
not only me feel so pissed off but somebody else too.
3rd thing.
YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME, JUST SHUT UP !
DUN ASKED ME WHAT HAPPENED..
IF NOT LEAVE MY BLOG AND OFF U GO.
Meet up with bestie at 2pm as she wanted to get some stuff.
Anyway ii am glad that you are fine. =)
Sorry for not talking so much due to my tiredness came across me.
But still, ii am HAPPY for you that you are doing greats
Was LATE for Business lesson.
Reach about 8.30am.
CA was talking about the module which we will be taking in OCT.
Well, ii am still thinking about it.
Banking & financial services
Human Resource Services.
Managing people & system
Entrepreneur
Under the 4 module, i decide to choose Human Resource under my 1st choice & banking & financial service under 2nd choice.
WORK
Super FUCKED UP over something.
Well , in which way am i doing thing wrong.
AM I THE ONE HAVING ATTITUDE OR YOU ARE THE ONE HAVING ATTITUDE?